October 21st, 2005
I decided to write something in here today not that anyone cares because no one looks at my journal.
i'm going bowling tonight not that anyone cares
i'd would rather toilet paper peoples houses.
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Poor Jack - Danny Elfman
no one loves me...
and everyone makes fun of me i'm always so deppressed
What do you mean no one loves you? You mom loves you!! And I'm always here if you need to talk to someone!! I'm sorry to say that being depressed isn't probably the smartest thing. I don't want you to get mad at me or anything I just think you really have no reason to be depressed. I mean. . . why? What is the point in being sad all the time? There isn't. You have a wonderful life!! Your mom loves you and you have a step-dad who cares for you! You also have Alex and Cathryn. I know that the people in your family can make you really angry sometimes (trust me I would know ;P) and you really don't want to be around them and you think they are ruining your life, but you need to understand that you were put in this situation on purpose by the Lord and that he wants you to learn something from all of this.
Everyone has there own problems they have to deal with, trust me, it's not just you. I feel sad and depressed sometimes but then I decided that I am better than that and I need to be happy. It's a choice to be depressed, you are letting this happen all you have to do is make a choice to be happy and then you have ot force yourself at first to be happy, my mom always says 'Fake it til you make it' whenever I am about to make a change with myself. You just gotta remember that Heavenly Father is there for you and whenever you feel sad you should talk to Him and ask Him what you should do and ask him for support and to help you become better. I don't want you to feel bad I just want you to be happy. I would really like it of you tried to be happy, but it won't happen at first you have to 'Fake Til You Make It' just pretend to be happy and not just for other people, pretend you happy when you are al by yourself also, don't go out and be all "Whoo Hoo I'm Happy' and be in your room and think 'My Life Sucks' It won't work that way. Just be happy all the time!!
And about people making fun of you. . . who cares!! Who gives a crap about what others think!! They don't matter, all that matters is that you are happy with you and what your doing. Just remember that people who make fun of others are just insecure and trying to make themselves feel better. Well, I don't want you to be mad at me for writing this but I just thought I would tell you what I thought. I really hope you do well, and COUNT YOU BLESSINGS!! You have so much to be thankful for!! You are a wonderful friend and I REALLY want to see you happier!